It’s been interesting, attempting to condense my photography interests into 20 or so photos for a public “show.” On my blog alone, I have more than a thousand images, and more than 40k images which are sitting, some raw, some post processed, on my external drives. Sometimes I pull up one of these images; maybe even specifically one I don’t like just to see if I can “rescue” it, and it turns out to get a lot of likes on tumblr or flickr. I am surprised by this and question my process, which may not be a terrible activity to undertake now and then. But is the universe really so random that my own curation is moot on my own work?
I also titled this post a public hanging. I have a difficult time going analog with my work. Print presents a finality that is difficult to accept. I don’t think I ever feel done processing a photo. I could feather an area, sharpen, dodge, burn, or see what it looks like in black and white or toned. Once hung on the wall, I wonder how I will feel about these 20 images I have selected. To off-quote and dramatize Perec, will I forget about these walls? Is this why we put pictures on walls, to forget that we build these barriers? If it is so easy to forget about the wall, will we forget about the pictures to? Did my photos just become a barrier or a tired excuse to forget about the walls if even for only a moment? Will I feel as free among them as when I captured the images? Is all of this junk-thought about hanging art really what
i we want need from art?
I have everything printed and ready to go, and now I have more than enough time to wonder if I selected the right ones.
I included a print of one sketch. This act of including a sketch is an old nemesis of mine. I have felt compelled, since I can remember, to include some aspect of my drawings in with my work in other mediums as if to say, look I can draw too! It is a crutch; a way of validating or communicating that I have artistic requirements I put on myself. This is an unfair requirement to place on the viewer though. Perhaps I will leave it out.
Still my primary goal is and has always been to increase my own visual vocabulary of the world, and share these ways of seeing with others. Perhaps this is what everyone does, but in their own respective interests and careers - but this is how I have chosen to go about it, and society is calling it art at the moment. I wish only for the show to connect with at least one person who will say, “I know that place, I have felt that feeling, and now I know how to convey that feeling, and know that someone else feels this way too.”
I think it will. Maybe. Perhaps. Hopefully.